N.O.W

I will be very busy in this semester plus busy with my fyp project..lolxx.... i'd done my proposal & will submit it to my supervisor. So sad this year, i could't celebrate my birthday, cos 1st i have no budget and 2nd, i will be having my field trip on my birthday, lol....sucks.....

But, i guess....besday celebration is not important...the most important is people will remember my besday, dats all.....

oouh...btw, i'm in a diet mode rite now..lolxx.....i mean, i will doing my exercise every weekdays and i don't take a meal starting from 8 pm everyday....lol...

i want look a bit thin cos i realize dat i'm fat now....haha..lol..

and i'm in a process to cure my pimples problem too....lol....got pimples around my face and they causes scars, merah2 oredi my face........lolx.....suckksss......but..i'm using dalacin t 1% solution to cure my acne and i apply it during nite time on my face, its just like toner, just apply it directly on a skin...dalacin t 1% is a solution which help to treat the pimples problem and its good to me....after apply it on the face, then i will apply pimple cream which contain tea tree oil to the affected area on my face, dalacin t will treat acne from the inside while the tea tree oil cream will help to cure pimple from the outside, so its better to use in and out....hehe....

during day time, after wash my face, i will apply tea tree oil toner onto my face and its good to reduce the size of the opening pores, and after apply it, the i will apply melilea cream sunblock, this good too for my skin, cos it containc a natural moisturizer which helps to moisturise my skin face......hohoho.....the most important it, i will never squeeze my pimples cos i biliv it can make my skin structure damage....well, i used to squeezed my pimples before, but i stopped doing it now coz yeahh....skin structure will be damage by squeezing those pimples.....so, just let the fuckin' pimples doing their job and i will kill them slowly......easy.....hohohohoho......

ouh...fyi, i take vitamin c too for my skin health, trust me..its good for our skin..

Saya sgt sayang dgn HUDSON TOH CHE SON!!

Last punya last punya nite...kami gaduh, adalah tu sebab dia...well, i'm the one who have problem bah, i'm too jealousy..sy sgt kuat cemburu, i dun like if he go disturb2 other girls whether in his own facebook or his fake facebook...lolxx...& even in reality pun...i don like!! Cos i jeles...sy sgt kuat cemburu, & bkn semua org dapat handle sikap sy yg mcm ini....hohohoh....

sy memang tak suka tgk dia layan other bitches, i hate it so much..

apa yg lucunya, semalam kan, sy ksh putus dia...hahhaha....actually sy sdg berfikir bah tu...ish ish ish....luculah...sy sgt sayang dia....then, sy send dia sms, bgtau dia, "darling, i love u..me tdk sanggup if u tiada....x snggup..x snggup.....bla bla..."

hahhahah.......kelucuan jg lah...bygkan, sy ksh putus hubungan kami sbb sy mau fokus dgn study sy, & sy kuat cemburu, jd untuk tdk membuatkan sy kusut2 pemikiran fikir pasal ni semua, better sy single...tu lah alasan yg sy bg dgn hudson sbb sy ni kuat cemburu...tdk suka tgk dia lyn pmpuan2 lain....lolxx......

Tapi, sy rasa lucu, hahahhah.....sbb sy sms dia smlm yg sy minta putus, walaupun sgt sakit hati tp sy buat jg......hahha...then, smlm tu sy sdg tgk movie d laptop, sy teringat dia.....tdk dapat hilanglah c hudson ni dari otak sy....kenapa ahh???hahahha....then, sy pun send sms lh dgn dia...sy tak snggup kehilangan dia...& sy tdk biasa kalau dia tiada...huhu......saya sangat syg hudson.....sy mmg tdk biasalah kalau dia tiada...& everyday sending him sms sdh jadi rutin harian sy seharian.....sy tdk biasa kalau tdk sms dgn dia dlm satu hari tu....hahahha....lucunya.....

Okey..actually, hudson x mau putus dgn sy jg, dia pun syg sy.....bila sy baca semula sms dia smlm, sy rasa lucu....hehehhe....sbb dia berabis suruh sy ckp yg sy yg tinggalkan dia.....hahahha.....hmm....tak snggup lh sy kalau hudson tiada..ish ish ish.......now, everything sdh settle, both of us still together, & sy pun happy sbb sy dpt teruskan pengajian sy dgn perfectly.....even sy ada much problems ari tu but now semua sdh settle.....thank god....

sy x mau gaduh2 dgn hudson lg okey.....& hudson sdh janji dgn sy yg dia akn delete .......................

hehhe........hudson memahaminya......heheh.....

What's new??

Hey, sorry for not blogging for so long..lolxx..i dun no wat i'm going to say but i just wanna share a bit news from me......

1. My ESPANIARDD won the world cup champion, yeahh....the are the greatest ever, so don blame them becoz of their own greatness!! no more talking shitt...in fact, they're not cheaters, they're WINNER !!!! they deserve the title.....so to all haters, BACK OFF ! & silent!!

2. I went for the rainforest in sarawak, well...heard many people told me dat it awesome...& yeah it awesome actually but NOT awesome enough....lolxx.....

3. New sem had started & new schedule was in...so gotta be more hardworking in this sem, still not pay my fee yet, dun have money rite now..

4. I hate to tell dis, but...new frens are here with me...pimples....!!! lolxx....there's lot of pimples pop out from my face dis nowadays...don no wats wrong..unstable hormone perhaps..lolxx....

5. I'm fat!! lolxx....wish i could reduce my weight by this end of month....31st july...its my birthdayy...yeaahh!! but i dun have money to celebrate it for this year.

6. Hmm..watelse..ouh yup..i dun get my ptptn dis sem..due to my sucks result last sem..lolxx...i mean second last sem..

7. I have money problem, dun no wat i'm going to do...

8. Dis sem, i have to score much !! i have to give 100% in my carrier...Study well, do well, score well......

i guess dats all bout the news......anything?? i'll check up later.....

xoxo

~Reb~

20 APRIL 2010 incident..i'm hurt enough...

Who am i??? wat type of person am i? you get to know me 1st then u will know....

Here i wanna share my hurt story of me, which maybe it will hurt u too if u be in my shoes..

On 20 april 2010..everything was revealed, its bout me n hudson..first of all, the 1st day i met him, i keep in my mind dat he's different, he will be my forever love ever, he's the perfect one for me & i'm sure dat he's the best among the best, i don judging him, i get to no him by myself, his behaviour, his attitude, his heart n his love..he loves me damn much n i love him so much, i love him to death..

But...everything was ruined, i was wrong..n i feel stupid..coz everything's revealed how he is exactly..only god knows how hurt i feel, why i feel hurt???????

I'm hurt exactly not becos of he's backstab to me, n yup i'm hurt becos of it too but the thing dat i feel hurt most is...he never appreciate wat i had done to him,never....after all..he always marah2 me, n keep saying dat me got scandal and so watever..bla bla bla...but i still sabar with him, i don mind he owes mrh2 me n ckp me kasar2, tapi.....at least..please appreciate me....

Only the god knows how am i...i will never ever curang to him, & sepanjang me in relationship with him, sy x pnh curang even once pun x pnh....cos i rili love him so much & for me, he's the one who make me smile, n i'm happy being with him, i rili love him & sy x sampai hati untuk curang dgn dia..

But...i never expect dat he will done backstab to me...ini balasan sy after all wat i done to him..

Sy terdiam seketika bila perbualan message antara sy n pamela sdh revealed wat he had done to me...sy terdiam itu maknanya, i'm soooo...deeply hurt...rili hurt...

I got no words to say..but....deeply in my heart, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH....he should know bout it....sampai hati dia buat sy mcm ni....:(

i'm hurt.....But....its okey..i accept this is as my challenge in my life..cabaran..n cobaan ..

Currently, me n him are fine now..we're still together, walau dia buat me mcm tu sekali pun, i still love him...n my love to him will never fades away, cos he sticked in my heart forever....

I want him to know dat i'm not a type of curang person..who will simply curang to my bf...i am not...i'm not like dat..walau dia jht dgn sy mcm mana pun, i won't ever do dat, cos i'm not dat type of person, my love is strong enough to him, selama ni pun, sy x pnh curang even dgn ex2 sy pun, me x pnh curang......

But i no, hudson never biliv in me even million times i told him..its ok lah..sy pun x mau bgtau dia, biar dia tau sendiri yg me bkn mcm itu....

But he oredi showed to me dat he's a type of curang person...i hope, he won't do the same thing again cos after all, he said dat he will swear to god dat he will never ever do the same thing...

ok....i'm waiting for u....I love him....i need god to cure my heart back, cos its still bleeding inside...

& i still trauma.....i wish the god will help me.....

His birthday & something weird

I am sooooo happy ....just trust me ok, i love hudson toh so much..today ( 16 february ) is his birthday, & i'm happy cos sy ada d sisi dia time birthday dia..hmm..lastnite jam 12 lbh mcm tu sy wish dia happy birthday, haa....even time tu, sy nampak ex gf dia org pertama wish dia birthday d sms hp c hudson..hmm..actually sy mau wish dia, but then suddenly hp hudson bunyi, rupanya msg dr ex dia pula wish dia birthday, so dialh org pertama yg wish dia birthday...hmm...sy??? maybe org ke 2....hmm....but i don mind with it..at least sy ada di sebelah dia time his besday, sy cukup besyukur sdh...i don no lah whether he still love his ex or not but i no dat his ex is still love him, if not then wht she always texting to hudson ...one of the message, his ex told him dat she added hudson in fb n asked him to prove her...perlukah mau bgtau?? think bout it..

But, i don mind actually if she still keep messaging him, i just hope dat hudson always love me...cos i love him sooooo....much...

Chance & new love!!

Time birthday sy, sy & my geng mcm biasalh geng2 sy..johnny, tya n syn..celebrate besday sy d grappa...dat time sy single n blm ready lg mau ada bf sbb sy yg mls...haha..then, satu hari ni, c johnny chatting dgn sy dlm facebook, she asked me whether i mau bf or not, then sy ckplh hmm...kalau kwn blh lh tp untuk jd bf sy rasanya sy blm ready lg....

Bknlh apa bah..i just scared in facing any hurt lg bah...sy sdh boring dgn tu semua...couple then pts couple then pts...so sy just x mau lg ada siapa2 dulu dlm hidup sy...lama jg sdh sy single, kalau ada pun bf, semua pun bkn bf sy...just relationship yg kita sndiri x pasti lagi mcm mana...so buat apa mau truskn relationship mcm tu...

sy penat mcm tu.....so i decided to stop those relationship..x mau lg...let it go saja...

hmm..then suddenly, ada satu number ni pg msg sy d hp sy..sy x knl number tu..tp msg dia bunyi mcm ni..' Rebecca towk kh? '

Then sy x reply sbb sy x knl...but then sy curious sgt bah mau tau number tu siapa..so satu hari tu sy msglh dia, then kmi msg pnya msg..rupanya dia lh guy yg c johnny mau knl kn sma sy tu...hehe..his name is hudson toh...hahahaha...hmm...dia kwn sy dlm facebook jg...

hehe...then, wat can i say ahh...kmi msg dlm hp n kmi couple melalui hp jg..blm pnh nmpk each other tp sdh nmpk pictures lh..

he's cute n looked ganas lh....then time birthday c tya, dia ada dtg tp dat time malu2 ni sy mau tegur dia..hahahha,...dia pun malu2 jg..wahahah...

tp before dat, kmi mmg ada plan mau stay 1 day sama2 di rumah dia....so the next day tu, mcm biasalh plan kmi..dia ambil sy d unimas then dia bwa sy keluar..tp bkn stay d rumah dia..stay di kampung dia....huhu......

hmm..wat can i say, sy suka kampung dia..tenang n fresh..n sy selesa dgn grandma n grandpa dia. they were so kind..n from there, i can describe, c hudson ni...he's nice guy..n i wish dis will be the last love...i want him..

besides, sy sdh bnyk kali hurt...hmm...actually sy bg diri sy chance untuk org lain..untuk love org lain...chance untuk diri sy sendiri...fuh...lgpun hudson pun suka dgn sy..n sy pun suka dia...dia single n sy single.....hmm...so apa slhnya sy bg chance untuk diri sy cuba cinta yg baru....lgpun sy sdh lama lupakan cinta yg lama n cinta yg lama pun sdh lama pupus....x mau ingat lg apa2....

just new love yg sy mau fokus skg....hehe...

tp kmi still dlm mengenal hati budi masing2...hehe..eiseh men....hahahah....jwnpan artis...

hmm...so dats all lh cerita sy tntg relationship yg sy baru bina...eiseh...hehe..

& trust me, i love him.....

Nite outing with my bffs!! Sheeeeee shaaaaaa time....

Yesterday, me & tya facebooking..sy pg di bilik dia kemarin, cos i owes lepak2 di bilik dia..then suddenly, kami ternampaklh status c syn in facebuk, she said ' BF sy kuat control lah ' then apa lagi, me n tya time tu pg comment status dia, kmi ckplh, ' Aik, bkn kau ckp bf kau tu jns yg x suka control kh..? kunun spoting gitu..deii plislah..', & then c syn comment blk, ' mcm manalh .?' then kmi reply ' kesian o kau hehe..', then syn reply, ' kecian aja..? huhuhu' then, dgn slumber sja kmi reply kmi ckp ' haha..mau apa kau? carilh yg lain '.. & then, x puas bercoment coment sna..hehe..trus c syn pm kmi dlm chat inbox tu...& gini ceritanya.........

syn : kesian sja kh kmu?

kami : hahahah...siapa suruh kau yg ckp dia tu spoting berabis

syn : mcm mana lh ni?

kami : apa lg..cari lainlh! ssh2 lg kau!

syn : tp......sy syg c mike..

tu antara dialogue kmi lh sma c syn...yg lain2 sy x ingat sdh..hahha..but then u no, last2...c syn reply dlm bhasa iban..then kmi reply lh dlm bhasa iban jg...rupa2nya, c mike pula yg replt kami time tu..wakakakakkaaa.....tp yg sebenarnya...........................yg reply status comment & chat inbox tu, ialah saya.....hahahahaha...satu kali c mike reply guna bahasa iban, trus sy suruh c tya yg reply..hahahha..lolxx....i just dtg d bilik c tya yesterday for lepaking pnly, c tya yg sdg facebooking time tu, then guna account dia sjalh mengreply...hahhaa...& then, cerita pnya cerita..suddenly, ntahlh siapa yg start dulu ckp pasal outing dat nite..i guess its tya...mybelh watever..hehe...then, me n tya x dpt go out dis saturday or sunday cos busy.. then kmi bgtau c mike ini..' tp kalau mlm ni, kmi dpt kluar..' then trus c mike agree jg mau go out, he then said ' ok..mlm tok ..' then apa lg, sy & tya happy ni...hahahahah...lolxxx...then ...at 8.30 sumthing lh mcm tu..we all jln, hmm..now story pasal tempat yg kmi pg tu...its Lebanon...

lebanon is a place which i can said dat its more to western style...& harga mkanan dia pun quite expensive jg tp shisha di sana quite cheap, its just RM19... hehe...comparing to labuan, shisha d sana RM25 i guess....haha...ok then kami order lh kunun2 mkanan kami, cos me n tya blm mkn, so kami mmg starving actually..shisha time ..., strawberry + mint flavour..hmm..test so good & delicious hahahah...its bout 1 half hour or more i guess, mkanan kmi blm smpai2 lg..imaginelh sy lapar o time tu..then u no apa saja yg kena bagi..? only 1 small plate with stir chicken + garlic sauce in it...dats all...then, kmi still waiting lg lah d other fuds..walaoo.....u no..smpai mau hbs shisha tu kmi sedut still blm smpai2 jg...then, satu kali tu, bf c syn , c mike..dia pg toilet & want to pay for our drinks & shisha..he then asked lh d waiter bout our fuds yg sdh berjam- jam lma kmi tunggu..lolxx...& then u no apa bdk tu ckp..???? hmm.......................

dia ckp, semua mkanan sdh hbs & dorang mau close sdh kedai dorang...

pnyalah panas hati sy.............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shitt!! sialan!! babi!! asshole!! smua lh sy maki....sdh tau habis..knapa x ckp awal2...ini..biar sja customer waiting...such fuckin asshole oo service d lebanon tu..first time in my life sy dpt service yg sgt worse mcm tu...!!!!! lolxx....mmg mud sy sdh rosak & upset..+ bad mud...nasib baik ada shisha..shisha sjalh yg sy layan..sdhlh green tea yg sy order pun dorang buat pahit.....lolxx....sdh pahit, pekat lg tu....adessss..................WTF!!!! mmg tdk hbs minuman sy padahal green tea is my favourite....lolxx......sooo worse & bad service from d workers of a lebanon.....lolxx....FUCK OFF !!!!! then, end up with shisha..we all pg kfc..hahhah..last2 ni kmi pg sna..sbb sy hungry...so i decided just to took kfc as my dinner...lolxx....

but sy okey jg bah...hehe..bad mud sy hilang after dat..hahahhaha.....tp mmg kmi i mean all d girls took bnyk2 pictures..bah biasalh kmi..camera is our number 1 fren....hahahahha... oh ya..ada video jg.....hehe...dats all lh yg sy mau cerita..kmi blk di unimas bout 12 sumthing mcm tu lah...

kenyang & sleepy.....haha...