Who am i??? wat type of person am i? you get to know me 1st then u will know....
Here i wanna share my hurt story of me, which maybe it will hurt u too if u be in my shoes..
On 20 april 2010..everything was revealed, its bout me n hudson..first of all, the 1st day i met him, i keep in my mind dat he's different, he will be my forever love ever, he's the perfect one for me & i'm sure dat he's the best among the best, i don judging him, i get to no him by myself, his behaviour, his attitude, his heart n his love..he loves me damn much n i love him so much, i love him to death..
But...everything was ruined, i was wrong..n i feel stupid..coz everything's revealed how he is exactly..only god knows how hurt i feel, why i feel hurt???????
I'm hurt exactly not becos of he's backstab to me, n yup i'm hurt becos of it too but the thing dat i feel hurt most is...he never appreciate wat i had done to him,never....after all..he always marah2 me, n keep saying dat me got scandal and so watever..bla bla bla...but i still sabar with him, i don mind he owes mrh2 me n ckp me kasar2, tapi.....at least..please appreciate me....
Only the god knows how am i...i will never ever curang to him, & sepanjang me in relationship with him, sy x pnh curang even once pun x pnh....cos i rili love him so much & for me, he's the one who make me smile, n i'm happy being with him, i rili love him & sy x sampai hati untuk curang dgn dia..
But...i never expect dat he will done backstab to me...ini balasan sy after all wat i done to him..
Sy terdiam seketika bila perbualan message antara sy n pamela sdh revealed wat he had done to me...sy terdiam itu maknanya, i'm soooo...deeply hurt...rili hurt...
I got no words to say..but....deeply in my heart, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH....he should know bout it....sampai hati dia buat sy mcm ni....:(
i'm hurt.....But....its okey..i accept this is as my challenge in my life..cabaran..n cobaan ..
Currently, me n him are fine now..we're still together, walau dia buat me mcm tu sekali pun, i still love him...n my love to him will never fades away, cos he sticked in my heart forever....
I want him to know dat i'm not a type of curang person..who will simply curang to my bf...i am not...i'm not like dat..walau dia jht dgn sy mcm mana pun, i won't ever do dat, cos i'm not dat type of person, my love is strong enough to him, selama ni pun, sy x pnh curang even dgn ex2 sy pun, me x pnh curang......
But i no, hudson never biliv in me even million times i told him..its ok lah..sy pun x mau bgtau dia, biar dia tau sendiri yg me bkn mcm itu....
But he oredi showed to me dat he's a type of curang person...i hope, he won't do the same thing again cos after all, he said dat he will swear to god dat he will never ever do the same thing...
ok....i'm waiting for u....I love him....i need god to cure my heart back, cos its still bleeding inside...
& i still trauma.....i wish the god will help me.....
