Its You!

Hye...i dun no where i should 2 express all of dis things but i think my blog is the most perfect place...
i met one guy, where? plis dun ask... ok my story is like dis.. I like dis one guy, he's single, 29 years old dis coming september, he only has a motorbike,  dun have a car hm..dun have lots of money $$.. not really handsome like Bradd pitt..lolxx.... but guess what?? I LIKE HIM N I LOVE HIM....its been one year i'm being single, n trust me after i broke up with my ex, i dun have any feelings towards guys anymore...but suddenly, i met dis guy, everythings changed n i fell in love with him..like seriously fucking shitt! u no wat..? all dis while, honestly i only look 4 a handsome guy, loaded $$ n rich guy..but, why him..?? i just love him..ya i love him bah..  :(((

but who knows ...i only can love him, but he cannot be with me..wanna know why..? wanna know wat his reason?? he said he is not suitable with me, he said we cannot be together.... :(((  he said, he dun have a car, he is not handsome, he said i'm too young for him ....  ;(( i'm sooo sad!  I told him, dat i really love him n i want 2 be with him, i dun care with his money, dun care with his face, dun care with his motorbike...i dun care..i just like him, i love him bah :((((  ayy nako, pamataian nqo eh.....  From his eyes, i know dat he likes me too..i know dat he loves me too... but why...? why u dun want 2 be with me..?? i want you bah .....:((
if i done anything wrong, i'm sorry.... trust me, i love u bah :((   if u ever read dis, i want u 2 know...do u no why i like u? Its becos u are totally different with any other guys dat i ever met.... u are very low profile, low maintenance guy, humble, kind, honest, u no wat..i really dun care wat ever things u have... i only want u..

So sad..dat u dun want me...  :(((((   miss u bah ..:((  i will be leaving dis place soon  :((( only God knows wat i feel now..i cnt even focus on my study... oh myy...  :(( pilunya hati sy..  :((  I cannot help myself, i love u bah :(((  tiada tempat sy mau mengadu, sini ja sy dapat.....x tau lg dgn siapa sy mau luah perasaan sy yg sdh terkumpul ni...  :((  i always keep thinking bout him... sampai sy xda selera mkn lg... i want you bah :(((

rasa mau bunuh diri saja .... if i ever hurt u with my words or sumthing, i'm sorry ..... maybe i should go n leave dis place n never come back here again.. :((  if i see u, i'm afraid i will cry in front of u n i will hurt.... it should be better to not see u n just go from here....  pilunya hati sy...  :((  If u ever read dis, i want u 2 know.. My heart is always belong to you..   even one day i have my own family, my own husband... trust me, my heart is always have YOU   ...  :((((

Habuk !!

Hola!!! Astagii, punya berhabuk sdh ni blog sy laaaaama sdh sy x update, hahah..lolxx..watever lah, i'm more active in my twitter than in my Blog.... hehe.. I dun know wat post that i have to tell here, cos there's lots of stories actually...tp sy malas update di sini..maybe u just can read my twitter cos there's lots of things dat i tweets there... maybe if i have important story then i will post here.. buat masa ni, blm ada lg interesting, i'm still biasa2 n nothing change bout me... still single n still enjoy n still mingle...n sure available.... dun malu2 to get close to me, cos i'm open minded person... wait for chinese new year, ada story.... hmm, christmas i'm not going anywhere, i'm in kuching dat time n the places that i went time xmas were, The Curves, Terminal one n other clubs... too much...having fun with my close fren shirly....we jst went together gether....... ok no story anymore... hoho..

Karaoke-ing is kind of addicted to me

Its been so long i din update anything, i guess i got no story to tell...

from previous2 week, my schedule is full with my karaoke-ing activities with my girls, Jane and Bibi...i guess we've been to few karaoke places including spring, pop wave, ilek2 and blue box...last week we went to K-enter at crown square, dat place is cool n awesome n i'm pretty sure only those kaya2 people only go there..well, we went there cos we heard it cost only RM10 for weekdays so we tried out ...but the sound system is not so rili good...tempat ja looks like standard and highclass but sound system sucks....and baru2 ni we went to pop wave ....again karaoke...u no wat, i think my schedule is full with the same activity..karaoke...haha..well so wat i love singing so much n i dun care kalau nyanyi sampai pecah suara...lol... and the most funniest thing was when me n bibi just came back from sabah on 12 nov, we dua terus went for jalan2 till nite and we went to pop wave but unfortunately its full and no room for us, so we decided to karaoke at pub and lounge just the opposite of the pop wave...Its a Bim pub n lounge karaoke..dun no whether if dats a correct name for it...so u no wat, me n bibi sang so many songs from 9 pm until 11 pm sumthing like dat..and we both only ordered green tea for drink....lol... soon after dat, me n bibi went to The cottage to watched live band and guess wat, the live band is fucking awesome.i love their performance...and once again we ordered green tea....lolxx....u no why? it is becos we out of budget to drink any bir or liquoir..besides me n bibi are not a good drinker......hahah..all we want is just entertainment dats all.....if i mix all up from previous2 weeks, i guess my daily activities really full with karaoke-ing.......well..i enjoy singing....

Cinta tak harus memiliki

Cinta tak seharusnya memiliki......by st12

Best ouh ni lagu.....its real ..cinta x semestinya kita akn memiliki, kita hanya mampu cinta tapi kita tak mampu memiliki....

sedih sy dengar ni lagu..:(

I wish you were here...

I can be tough, i can be strong,

but with u, its not like dat at all,

There's a girl dat gives a shit,

behind dis wall, u just walk through it

and i remember all those crazy things u said,

u left them running through my head,

u're owes there, u're everywhere,

but rite now i wish u were here

All those crazy things we did,

didn't think about it just went with it,

u're owes there, u're everywhere,

But rite now i wish u were here,

Damn, damn, damn,

wat i'd do to have u here, here, here,

damn, damn, damn,

wat i'd do to have u near, near, near,

I wish u were here,

Its weird when i dun wanna see u at all and, i won't forgive you and i keep avoiding myself away from you,

i dun wanna no bout u anymore, and i dun want u to no bout me anymore...

but deep inside my heart...i wish u were here...

but i dun have the rite to keep myself near and closer to u anymore

so, i just keep telling myself dat i wish u were here...

I wish you were here......

Hello KL bye Sarawak....Hello sarawak..bye KL...

Holy shit!...i love KL....dats all i can say...hehe...

on 28th august, last sunday i fly to KL for my vacation...jalan2 n cuti2.....i've been there for 5 days. My first day came there, i was like jakun u no...hehe...KL is totally different with my own place....and i think i kind like the people around KL....so many tourists...well...i'm a malaysian but when i went to petaling street, all the jurujual there speaking english with me cos they thought i'm from other country.......haha..funny ..not so much spending out in KL...my first day was my resting day cos i landed at 10 pm sumthing, the second day, i went pusing2 in KL......pavilion - timesquare - sungei wang - KLCC and many more.......i forgot oredi.....heheh..the main thing that i like most bout Kl is there is so many choices to buy especially the clothes, the shoes.....omg......rambang mata sy.......but anyway...i bought some blouses for me....and some accesory....hehe...lolxx...

and the most likely thing, hehhe.....sy sdh naik macam2 tren yg ada d sana....including KTM komuter.......gosh!!....LRT best.........hehe...i went to midvalley, petaling street and more.....lol...lupa nama...hehe...at nite time, i jalan2 at bukit bintang....mcm2 org yg ada.......ada pengemis yg btl2 kesian.....ada pengemis yg mcm dibuat buat.....and ada gold man....famous man in malaysia ...and ada mcm2.....all in one grouping in Bukit bintang.......lepak2 sana mmg best....ada show.........Its true lah wat people said....KL is everything n anything cos semuanya ada......

1 sept, i went back to sarawak......fuhh....flite malam...i stayed at fata hotel for one nite cos i'm too tiring to back home to samarahan........ok..the next day, i went to carpenter street jalan2.......then...limpas some guys at the kaki lima at carpenter street there, then they all suddenly say "hello" "hye".....to me....then i said "hye..".......then they asked me, " helo, where u from? ".........ahax...(eh...rupa sy ni mcm rupa pelancong kh..??? )......lolxx.x.......then.....apa lagi sy.........mau tombirang jg ni...then i replied them " hye...i'm from phillipines..".......hahahahhaha.....percaya jg dorang.......bebalas balik speaking english.....lolxx....last2 sy boring, then i left them......lolxx...funny....

and now....i'm here at home.....samarahan........blogging......eehehhehe....dats all my story....sorry no pictures were taken during i'm in KL cos its private........hahahahah.....bye2....

I'm in PEACE

Semakin hari berlalu.....semakin sy gembira.....entah lh napa...happy jak sy....hehe...bkn happy...tenang bah....aman n damai.....wahh...feels like i'm in heaven...hihihi...wanna no why..?

............................................its because.....i got my gurdian angel within myself....and i biliv the God sent it to me......dun no..its just i feels i'm changing....its just happened...i biliv the God had whisper to me and talk to me..and i know he listen to my prayer...

and..sy dapat rasakan yg sy ada nasib.....it came to happened like dis bah....

first, i stay d rmh sewa now dis...and sumtimes i got money problem....u no lah kan..to pay bilik n ada aircond lg....so its all need money..but nasib ada parents lh can give me money......but..its just i want to be independent bah, dun want terlalu harapkn parents ...so my story like dis...sy ternampak iklan untuk cari guru tusyen d sekitar samarahan ni jg dkt dgn tmpat sy stay..cun2 dat time, kwn sy c jane dia one of teacher sna jg, so ada lh sy dgn kwn sy yg lain try pg apply jd cikgu d sna...then the bos ckp dia terima but we have to find our students at least 3 students...then dia bg lh kami advertisements untuk sebar d mana2........huh...sy ni pemalas....mana ada sy sebar....hahahhah....so sy mls lh..and then...lama jg lh sy biarkn...mls kan mau cari students...so sy biar kn ja lh....then...everyday lh sy ni pray and pray.....minta dimurahkn rezeki....of cos lh..kan sy pun mau independent...mls lh if terlalu depend on parents...then tiba2 satu hari tu, c jane ni dia sms sy mcm ni sms dia d hp.." kau mau ganti sy kh ajar tusyen? ", then sy reply.." aik..kenapa..? ".., dia reply.. " sbb sy mau balik sabah..lgpun sy mmg mau quit sdh.." ....wahhhhh.....rezeki ni....(dlm hati sy lah)..hahha...then sy ckp lh.." ouh yakah....boleh jg bah..." ..then dia reply, " bah kalau kau setuju, kita jumpa miss amanda, bgtau dia..lepas ni kau start lh..".....apa lg...gembira lh sy kan...rezeki bah tu.....takkan sy mau tolak ..kan..? hehhe...sy rasa cukup lh sekadar mau cari duit extra sikit kan..so tdklh sy terlalu depend dgn parents....drpd sy kerja d club.....actually..sy x suka jg keja d club ni...sikit lg sy mau plan keja d club tau....sbb desperate kan mau cari duit.....hahahha...but..u see kan..the power of the God....finally..sy dpt jg jd guru tusyen ajar students darjah 4, 5 and 6......hihi..i really thankful to the God.....He always listen to me....

oke y..story pasal ajar budak2 tusyen ni...hehe..best becos dealing with the kids makes me gain more ideas...u no lah kan...budak2 punya pmikiran dgn org dewasa x sama bah....dorang mostly, pemikiran dorang lbh d luar drpd kotak...so i think best lh....hehhe...i teach them BM n Science....and i feel enjoy ajar dorang...well..i'm the youngest child in my family..so when i dealing with the kids...sy rasa mcm sy sama pemikiran dgn dorang...yg lucunya...dorang suka bg sy teka teki n sy suka bg jawapan yg gila2...bila salah, kami sama2 ketawa......kuang3.....

second story, kisah dia mcm ni....hari tu sy pg allamanda d unimas tmpat kwn sy punya hostel...rajin lh mau buat GIS report.....work so hard ni..smpai makan pun blh lupa gara2 mau ksh siap report saja....haha....gini story dia...sy buat report data d hostel kwn sy tu dr jam 12 mcm tu sampai jm 4....sbb bas unimas terakhir just sampai jam 4 ja...then apa lg..sy pun keluar lh...mau tunggu bas d bus stop ...then d bus stop tu ada sorang negro..i mean..african lh...african people...dia duduk n tunggu bas jg..then he smiled at me....sy pun smile jg...then ...tiba2 dia tanya ni..." Hye..wats ur name..? "...sy reply.." Rebecca..", then dia tanya.." wat is rebecca's real name in a bible..? ".....apa lg sy....mak oii.......terkejut sy dgr tu soalan......hahahha....mau ragu2 sy jawab....hahha...u no why...cus i dun read the bible.......ish3....sorry God....bible sy d sana sabah......ish3.....jahat kau ni Rebecca ksh tinggal bible d sabah.....napa x bawa pg cni bumi kenyalang..? ish3.......then sy reply lh dgn negro tu.." Erggghh...i dun no cos i dun read the bible.." (sedihnya sy menjawab dia tau)......then dia ckp.." why..? u are christian rite..? christian people should read bible.." .....berbelah bagi jiwa n raga sy mau jwb kh tdk..last2 sy senyum ja dgn dia......hehehe.....then dia start lh lecturing dgn sy pasal bible...pasal history of religion.....and i just listen to him...but when i'm thinking back......i think sy kena sumthing yg buat sy trus sedar n bangun .....mcm sy kena panggilan drpd Tuhan ....and then sy trus terfikir mau buat rosary prayer.........well...rosary pun sy x bawa...semua d sana sabah.....ish3.......apa lh kau ni Rebecca.....okey2.....gini lh...sy akan beli rosary n pg church minta blessing dr priest....and i will pray the rosary....amen....

I biliv the God had sent me a guardian angel in my heart and also came from another holy people to make me realise...that every human in dis world should remember the God..should biliv in him..should obey Him....becos one is for sure...everything that we have, everything that we own..are all temporary....God is the one who created us....at the end of time..He will take everything back........so, be appreciate wat u have now n always remember the God....just biliv that God is with us every second, every moment and everywhere........

and now...my life semua berjalan dgn smoothly ja.....n i feel so in peace....happy and ....i'm happy......totally happy with my life.......thanks to the God for everything that u gave to me.....i biliv u always listen to my prayer and i biliv in a miracle that u sent to me..............

That's all for now......goodnite...mau sleep.......hihih.......Amen...