Single...again n again...

I don't wanna to write so much, cos i'm totally deeply hurt....once again i'm being into single relationship now as i'm too tiring of dramas...too tiring with promises...which after all...only the empty promises that i got..i'm just damn tiring with all of this..& this makes all my life more get into bullshitt n stressing me .....i don't want this thing happened but i have to make this decision, cos i'm so much hurt....i can't stand anymore....we're over....you win....you free now.....

if you ever read this, i just want u to know that i had to made this decision not becos i don't love you anymore....i'm so love you...i really do....but you hurting me many times n i can't stand anymore......this time, i give up.....i surrender...both of us cannot be handle together...we're not meant to be together....i'm deeply hurt......i hope one day, you could find someone better than me..i'm out.....Thank you for everything...

The most moment that i can't forgive myself...

On wednesday, 29th september 2010......

all i could say is i'm really sorry...really sorry for what i had done....ya, its my own fault for done those stupid thing such like dat to u..i din meant to...i don want it happened actually but i blame myself for too emosion..n i'm too care bout my anger feels...i din meant to did like dat...i'm rili sorry....all i could say i'm sorry enough to u...i know even how i say sorry million times to u, u still cannot forgive me...i know...i know i make u worried bout me dat nite...but i'm rili sorry ...its me who should be blame, its me..myself...no one else..i'm just too emo.. all my anger had controlling myself...i even cannot control my emosion....i can't help myself...but all i want u to know...i'm honest with u..i never lied to u since we started our relationship...trust me..cos i rili love u...i'm just too jealous...i'm too emosion...n i cannot control myself...trust me.....i never lied to u...i'm honest with u...all the entire of our relationship...i'm honest with u...i explained to u bout it dat nite....trust me......i din meant to hurt u like dat..i din meant to make u worried...please blame myself...blame myself....my fault...its my fault....i'm sorry....i'm really sorry.........i'm so sorry...i'm sorry.......i know, our relationship had to be ended up like dis...i'm failed...i'm failed to save our relationship like dis..i'm failed...i'm failed enough...i even can't forgive myself....i know u hate me...ya, u can say all bad things bout me...i'm the one who should be blame....its my fault....ya...my fault..i even can't say anything more....i don no how.....but all i could say is i'm sorry.....trust me dat i won't backstab u...cos i rili love u......i'm sorry for being too emosion....i'm sorry for hurt u...i'm sorry for make u worried...i'm sorry for everything....i'm really sorry....if u ever read this, all i coull say is i'm really sorry.....i'm so sorry......i love u so much.....n i'm so sorry......