Karaoke-ing is kind of addicted to me

Its been so long i din update anything, i guess i got no story to tell...

from previous2 week, my schedule is full with my karaoke-ing activities with my girls, Jane and Bibi...i guess we've been to few karaoke places including spring, pop wave, ilek2 and blue box...last week we went to K-enter at crown square, dat place is cool n awesome n i'm pretty sure only those kaya2 people only go there..well, we went there cos we heard it cost only RM10 for weekdays so we tried out ...but the sound system is not so rili good...tempat ja looks like standard and highclass but sound system sucks....and baru2 ni we went to pop wave ....again karaoke...u no wat, i think my schedule is full with the same activity..karaoke...haha..well so wat i love singing so much n i dun care kalau nyanyi sampai pecah suara...lol... and the most funniest thing was when me n bibi just came back from sabah on 12 nov, we dua terus went for jalan2 till nite and we went to pop wave but unfortunately its full and no room for us, so we decided to karaoke at pub and lounge just the opposite of the pop wave...Its a Bim pub n lounge karaoke..dun no whether if dats a correct name for it...so u no wat, me n bibi sang so many songs from 9 pm until 11 pm sumthing like dat..and we both only ordered green tea for drink....lol... soon after dat, me n bibi went to The cottage to watched live band and guess wat, the live band is fucking awesome.i love their performance...and once again we ordered green tea....lolxx....u no why? it is becos we out of budget to drink any bir or liquoir..besides me n bibi are not a good drinker......hahah..all we want is just entertainment dats all.....if i mix all up from previous2 weeks, i guess my daily activities really full with karaoke-ing.......well..i enjoy singing....

Cinta tak harus memiliki

Cinta tak seharusnya memiliki......by st12

Best ouh ni lagu.....its real ..cinta x semestinya kita akn memiliki, kita hanya mampu cinta tapi kita tak mampu memiliki....

sedih sy dengar ni lagu..:(

I wish you were here...

I can be tough, i can be strong,

but with u, its not like dat at all,

There's a girl dat gives a shit,

behind dis wall, u just walk through it

and i remember all those crazy things u said,

u left them running through my head,

u're owes there, u're everywhere,

but rite now i wish u were here

All those crazy things we did,

didn't think about it just went with it,

u're owes there, u're everywhere,

But rite now i wish u were here,

Damn, damn, damn,

wat i'd do to have u here, here, here,

damn, damn, damn,

wat i'd do to have u near, near, near,

I wish u were here,

Its weird when i dun wanna see u at all and, i won't forgive you and i keep avoiding myself away from you,

i dun wanna no bout u anymore, and i dun want u to no bout me anymore...

but deep inside my heart...i wish u were here...

but i dun have the rite to keep myself near and closer to u anymore

so, i just keep telling myself dat i wish u were here...

I wish you were here......

Hello KL bye Sarawak....Hello sarawak..bye KL...

Holy shit!...i love KL....dats all i can say...hehe...

on 28th august, last sunday i fly to KL for my vacation...jalan2 n cuti2.....i've been there for 5 days. My first day came there, i was like jakun u no...hehe...KL is totally different with my own place....and i think i kind like the people around KL....so many tourists...well...i'm a malaysian but when i went to petaling street, all the jurujual there speaking english with me cos they thought i'm from other country.......haha..funny ..not so much spending out in KL...my first day was my resting day cos i landed at 10 pm sumthing, the second day, i went pusing2 in KL......pavilion - timesquare - sungei wang - KLCC and many more.......i forgot oredi.....heheh..the main thing that i like most bout Kl is there is so many choices to buy especially the clothes, the shoes.....omg......rambang mata sy.......but anyway...i bought some blouses for me....and some accesory....hehe...lolxx...

and the most likely thing, hehhe.....sy sdh naik macam2 tren yg ada d sana....including KTM komuter.......gosh!!....LRT best.........hehe...i went to midvalley, petaling street and more.....lol...lupa nama...hehe...at nite time, i jalan2 at bukit bintang....mcm2 org yg ada.......ada pengemis yg btl2 kesian.....ada pengemis yg mcm dibuat buat.....and ada gold man....famous man in malaysia ...and ada mcm2.....all in one grouping in Bukit bintang.......lepak2 sana mmg best....ada show.........Its true lah wat people said....KL is everything n anything cos semuanya ada......

1 sept, i went back to sarawak......fuhh....flite malam...i stayed at fata hotel for one nite cos i'm too tiring to back home to samarahan........ok..the next day, i went to carpenter street jalan2.......then...limpas some guys at the kaki lima at carpenter street there, then they all suddenly say "hello" "hye".....to me....then i said "hye..".......then they asked me, " helo, where u from? ".........ahax...(eh...rupa sy ni mcm rupa pelancong kh..??? )......lolxx.x.......then.....apa lagi sy.........mau tombirang jg ni...then i replied them " hye...i'm from phillipines..".......hahahahhaha.....percaya jg dorang.......bebalas balik speaking english.....lolxx....last2 sy boring, then i left them......lolxx...funny....

and now....i'm here at home.....samarahan........blogging......eehehhehe....dats all my story....sorry no pictures were taken during i'm in KL cos its private........hahahahah.....bye2....

I'm in PEACE

Semakin hari berlalu.....semakin sy gembira.....entah lh napa...happy jak sy....hehe...bkn happy...tenang bah....aman n damai.....wahh...feels like i'm in heaven...hihihi...wanna no why..?

............................................its because.....i got my gurdian angel within myself....and i biliv the God sent it to me......dun no..its just i feels i'm changing....its just happened...i biliv the God had whisper to me and talk to me..and i know he listen to my prayer...

and..sy dapat rasakan yg sy ada nasib.....it came to happened like dis bah....

first, i stay d rmh sewa now dis...and sumtimes i got money problem....u no lah kan..to pay bilik n ada aircond lg....so its all need money..but nasib ada parents lh can give me money......but..its just i want to be independent bah, dun want terlalu harapkn parents ...so my story like dis...sy ternampak iklan untuk cari guru tusyen d sekitar samarahan ni jg dkt dgn tmpat sy stay..cun2 dat time, kwn sy c jane dia one of teacher sna jg, so ada lh sy dgn kwn sy yg lain try pg apply jd cikgu d sna...then the bos ckp dia terima but we have to find our students at least 3 students...then dia bg lh kami advertisements untuk sebar d mana2........huh...sy ni pemalas....mana ada sy sebar....hahahhah....so sy mls lh..and then...lama jg lh sy biarkn...mls kan mau cari students...so sy biar kn ja lh....then...everyday lh sy ni pray and pray.....minta dimurahkn rezeki....of cos lh..kan sy pun mau independent...mls lh if terlalu depend on parents...then tiba2 satu hari tu, c jane ni dia sms sy mcm ni sms dia d hp.." kau mau ganti sy kh ajar tusyen? ", then sy reply.." aik..kenapa..? ".., dia reply.. " sbb sy mau balik sabah..lgpun sy mmg mau quit sdh.." ....wahhhhh.....rezeki ni....(dlm hati sy lah)..hahha...then sy ckp lh.." ouh yakah....boleh jg bah..." ..then dia reply, " bah kalau kau setuju, kita jumpa miss amanda, bgtau dia..lepas ni kau start lh..".....apa lg...gembira lh sy kan...rezeki bah tu.....takkan sy mau tolak ..kan..? hehhe...sy rasa cukup lh sekadar mau cari duit extra sikit kan..so tdklh sy terlalu depend dgn parents....drpd sy kerja d club.....actually..sy x suka jg keja d club ni...sikit lg sy mau plan keja d club tau....sbb desperate kan mau cari duit.....hahahha...but..u see kan..the power of the God....finally..sy dpt jg jd guru tusyen ajar students darjah 4, 5 and 6......hihi..i really thankful to the God.....He always listen to me....

oke y..story pasal ajar budak2 tusyen ni...hehe..best becos dealing with the kids makes me gain more ideas...u no lah kan...budak2 punya pmikiran dgn org dewasa x sama bah....dorang mostly, pemikiran dorang lbh d luar drpd kotak...so i think best lh....hehhe...i teach them BM n Science....and i feel enjoy ajar dorang...well..i'm the youngest child in my family..so when i dealing with the kids...sy rasa mcm sy sama pemikiran dgn dorang...yg lucunya...dorang suka bg sy teka teki n sy suka bg jawapan yg gila2...bila salah, kami sama2 ketawa......kuang3.....

second story, kisah dia mcm ni....hari tu sy pg allamanda d unimas tmpat kwn sy punya hostel...rajin lh mau buat GIS report.....work so hard ni..smpai makan pun blh lupa gara2 mau ksh siap report saja....haha....gini story dia...sy buat report data d hostel kwn sy tu dr jam 12 mcm tu sampai jm 4....sbb bas unimas terakhir just sampai jam 4 ja...then apa lg..sy pun keluar lh...mau tunggu bas d bus stop ...then d bus stop tu ada sorang negro..i mean..african lh...african people...dia duduk n tunggu bas jg..then he smiled at me....sy pun smile jg...then ...tiba2 dia tanya ni..." Hye..wats ur name..? "...sy reply.." Rebecca..", then dia tanya.." wat is rebecca's real name in a bible..? ".....apa lg sy....mak oii.......terkejut sy dgr tu soalan......hahahha....mau ragu2 sy jawab....hahha...u no why...cus i dun read the bible.......ish3....sorry God....bible sy d sana sabah......ish3.....jahat kau ni Rebecca ksh tinggal bible d sabah.....napa x bawa pg cni bumi kenyalang..? ish3.......then sy reply lh dgn negro tu.." Erggghh...i dun no cos i dun read the bible.." (sedihnya sy menjawab dia tau)......then dia ckp.." why..? u are christian rite..? christian people should read bible.." .....berbelah bagi jiwa n raga sy mau jwb kh tdk..last2 sy senyum ja dgn dia......hehehe.....then dia start lh lecturing dgn sy pasal bible...pasal history of religion.....and i just listen to him...but when i'm thinking back......i think sy kena sumthing yg buat sy trus sedar n bangun .....mcm sy kena panggilan drpd Tuhan ....and then sy trus terfikir mau buat rosary prayer.........well...rosary pun sy x bawa...semua d sana sabah.....ish3.......apa lh kau ni Rebecca.....okey2.....gini lh...sy akan beli rosary n pg church minta blessing dr priest....and i will pray the rosary....amen....

I biliv the God had sent me a guardian angel in my heart and also came from another holy people to make me realise...that every human in dis world should remember the God..should biliv in him..should obey Him....becos one is for sure...everything that we have, everything that we own..are all temporary....God is the one who created us....at the end of time..He will take everything back........so, be appreciate wat u have now n always remember the God....just biliv that God is with us every second, every moment and everywhere........

and now...my life semua berjalan dgn smoothly ja.....n i feel so in peace....happy and ....i'm happy......totally happy with my life.......thanks to the God for everything that u gave to me.....i biliv u always listen to my prayer and i biliv in a miracle that u sent to me..............

That's all for now......goodnite...mau sleep.......hihih.......Amen...

Its my birthday.......wat story??

Today is my birthday....its rili great if i'm with my family rite now, damn i missed them so much......

So, here's my story...lolxx...no story lah..everything is just same just the way it is, well i'm happy got so many wishes from my relatives and frens..my fb wall i guess kan baru one hour starting from 12 am, wall fb sdh full dgn wish besday....hehe...i really appreciate that....kan bgs if i'm with my beloved family now....well, i din celebrate my birthday, its not important rite..i think no need celebrate lh, all those greetings n wishes from my frens and family is enough oredi, i'm really happy...hehe...gosh! i'm 23 years old now haha...but many people said i still look like 18....ahax...terlebih sudah...kuang3....but yup its true bah got people said like dat to me...well..awet muda...hihihih...For my 23rd birthday, i wish everything goes well with my studies and i hope that i will success in my final exam yeah! i can do it..i no i can..i'm clever girl ...hihi.. soon, i will finish my degree...it will be next year around jun 2012, uhhh....i hope so......mudah mudahan....dats why now, i'm just focusing on my study n i'm happy with my life being a student....although i have some problem and dat is....i can't sleep..zzz.....duh! it always happened bah every nite...i really cannot sleep...aiyyo...and my mata is like panda oredi....kuang3....but its ok..i still can focus lecture in a class....yer ker..???? yelah tu.....hahahha....

eh its true bah..even i cannot sleep, i still can focus in a class mah...aiigooo...lolxx......

sooo....i guess dats all yg sy mau tulis...haha...oh ya...sy teringin mau buat performance lh..rindu....zaman2 kegemilangan....eisemen....hahha..terlebih sdh...haha...bkn bah..i missed to perform like dulu2....dance n sing...well..now kn holiday so xda event d unimas...maybe nanti sept. baru ada event.........so usually sy kena suruh perform.....kikikki..bangga lah tu...bangga kerr???? wahahhaha....tdklh bangga....but u no lah kan...ada lh jg bangga siiiiiikkiit.........hihiihih.....its ok, now busy ni dgn assignment, final exam lg.....ish2...sempat lg memblogging kan sy?? hihiihi.....aiyyoo....gua bkn slalu blogging mah....kekekek....oklah...dats all my story...nothing interesting pun.....nantilah tunggu my next post mengumpat org.....wakakaaaka...jahatnya mulut......hahhaha....alaaa...mcm lh blog sy ni ramai follower...hahah..alamak....terlebih sdh....ceh! ......ok..dats all....

GONE FOREVER! I FEEL BETTER....

Don't know what's going on, Don't know what went wrong

Feels like a hundred years, I Still can't believe you're gone

So I'll stay up all night, With these bloodshot eyes

While these walls surround me with the story of our life

I feel so much better, now that you're gone forever

I tell myself that I don't miss you at all

I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now, that you're gone forever

Now things are coming clear, And I don't need you here

And in this world around me.... i'm glad you disappeared

So I'll stay out all night...Get drunk and fuckin' fight

Until the morning comes I'll...Forget about our life

First time you screamed at me..,I should have made you leave

I should have known it could be so much better

I hope you're missing me...I hope I've made you see

That I'm gone forever...i'm glad you disappeared....

* This is a lyric from a song, rock song and i love it so much....cos it so much matches with my real life...i love dis song so much! I will make my own cover on dis song with my own version and will upload it on you tube, so i hope u guys will love my singing cover....hehe...ROCK STEADY!!

The song and the lyric are here..in dis video...so have a look and listen it...pretty cool song with huge meaning!

Tabah dengan apa yang terjadi, Tuhan sentiasa di sisi saya....

Sy cuba untuk belajar bersendirian mulai dari saat ini, since sy sdh putus dgn ex bf sy. Sukar untuk sy bercinta semula lg setelah apa yg sy hadapi ni semua mengambil masa yg lama untuk sy pulih, hati sy msh terluka n terguris, its not easy for me to fall in love anymore with someone else...sbb hati sy msh ada dia....x pnh hilang dr hati...
kini, kami sdh x sama2 lg dan apa yg sy harapkn skg ialah sy fokus kpd pelajaran sy n sy mau berusaha sehingga sy berjaya....sy percaya pd diri sy sendiri yg sy tabah hadapi ni semua...dan sy anggap apa yg sy hadapi ini adalah cabaran drpd tuhan supaya kita sbg manusia akan terus memajukan diri ke hadapan...saya terima sahaja dgn apa yg tuhan berikan kpd sy dlm hidup ini....sy bersyukur kpd tuhan yg sy diberikan hati yg tulus ikhlas dlm percintaan walaupun sikap sy nakal n gila.....tapi sy bersyukur yg tuhan kurniakn hati yg ikhlas kpd sy dlm bercinta n setia pada cinta...
Selepas ini, i just move on with my life n my studies...masih jauh lg perjalanan sy dlm hidup ini..and i biliv with myself i can do dis n i'm strong......i still have my family n frens that always support me....whatever happened.....there's a reason...baik atau buruk, ada hikmah di sebaliknya dgn apa yg berlaku.....hidup masih panjang lg...yg sy perlu buat, teruskan perjalanan maju ke depan ......maybe one day, i will meet my Mr. Right.....yg menerima diri sy seadanya.....yg menghargai cinta sy, n dapat setia dlm percintaan n sehingga akhir hayat sy.....I biliv in a miracle....dan sy sentiasa berdoa untuk terus tabah dlm hidup....n i biliv the God will hear my prayer ..dan sy percaya dia akan makbulkn doa sy...I bilieve in God...
Tuhan sentiasa memaafkan kesalahan kita....dan sy berharap yg tuhan akn dpt maafkan kesalahan dia dgn apa yg dia buat kpd sy...sebab, sy sdh berjanji pd diri sy sendiri yg sy x akan memaafkan dia sampai bila2....sampai akhir hayat sy sekali pun....terlalu berat kesalahan itu sehinggakan sy x dpt memaafkan dia sampai bila2.....Tuhan sahaja yg mampu maafkan dia n Tuhan saja yg mampu balas perbuatan dia...i biliv in karma...what goes around comes around....kini....jalan hidup yg baru sdh terbentang luas di depan sy....apa yg sy harus buat....maju ke hadapan sehingga capai kejayaan dlm hidup.....dan sy berterima kasih n syukur kpd tuhan kerana berikn sy dugaan dlm hidup ni semua supaya sy akan terus kuat hadapi cabaran dlm hidup.........

~ 6 November 2009 - we're couple

~ 7 November 2009 - U brought me to ur village, and i still remember u told me, dat u never brought any girls to ur village. Me, the first one.

~ 2009 - we both very happy together, u help me if i need ur help, and i help u if u need my help..we're so happy together..and i can felt that ur my destiny.

~ The first month of 2010 - everything just fine, and we seems like no problem together..we date n we love each other..like the world is ours.

~ March 2010 - Until one day, i knew ur secret...that u've been dating with someone else. No one can explain what i felt that time, only God can understand me...u broke my heart ...u killed it..stabbed it till' it destroyed n damaged.

~ 2010 - But u still want to prove to me that u will change....u swear...u want to change..n u won't do the same thing again...u said u really love me...finally...i gave u one more chance to prove to me that u want to change....

~ Started from that day, everything's change including me...i cannot just trust u anymore...everywhere u go, i'll asked...everyday, each time i'll sms u...i always scolding u and fighting with u...i easily get jealous...and i always think the negative about u...don't u realize why i act such like that? it's because u broke my trust once and i cannot force myself to trust u like the first time i met u...don't u no that..this all because of u...look what u've done..

~ July 2010 - we still together..and we went for the rainforest...i'm so happy that moment..and i seen that our relationship will ever long last...cos..i noticed ur changes to a positive way...and i whispered in my heart..ya..maybe this second chance is worth...u have lots of changes...i like ur changes..and i started thinking that yup..everybody deserve the second chance..

~ 6 november 2010 - our one year anniversary....

~ 31 december 2010 - we're celebrated new year at ur fren's house..i'm happy that time..even i dun celebrated it with my beloved family...but i really appreciate that i'm with u during the new years time...

~ 16 february 2011 - its ur birthday...i still remember i gave u boxers for ur present....i like dat..i like to see u wearing those boxers...sexy....and i'm happy for giving u presents....dun no why...i'm just happy..

~ ...earrings..traditional accesories...jersy paraguay...and i'm happy when u gave me the leather handbag...i love it...

~ 2011 - but...i noticed ur changed this nowadays...since i moved to my new house...we seldom meet...and...u said u busy....i understand that ur very busy....i din angry at u...but....i really feel dissapointed when u treat me like i'm not ur girlfren anymore....it happened many times...i sms u, u din reply me...it happened many times...i still keep patient...i told to my heart....rebecca, be patient...he is just busy....

I understand ur very busy...u told me that u busy working at ur place mjc...its clearly make me understand but at least..............dun treat me like i never exist in ur world...its really hurt me...

~ 5 june 2011 - i sms u n u din reply me...i called u n u din pick up ur fon...then suddenly came up this message which u never been ever send me such message like dat for one and half years we in relationship.. ' saya bz...jgn kol saya..' ..... its just happened suddenly....just like that...

i was totally surprised with ur message....i dun no what to think anymore...

~ its just happened....and u broke our relationship...just like that......why don't u tell me earlier that u want to break me? i dun want anything...i just want ur attention towards me...i just want to feel that i'm not alone......i din ask more than that...dats all i want...

i guess...ur changed.....ur changed very well and faster than i thought...and now i feel really regret for giving u the second chance...and i'm very stupid cos i failed again....why don u just honest with me...tell me the truth..? i dun think u love me for one year and half of our relationship.... I'M NOT YOUR TRUE LOVE......

~ everything is just a memories................thank you for everything...........

Look what u've done.....

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

~ Think before u say sumthing.....

God loves me

Do i look like i'm happy? maybe for u...but i'm not.....

i'm not happy at all...i just pretending to be happy...

I just want to kill myself, n just like that.....so dat i won't feel the hurts...

but the God whispered to me inside my heart...that HE just teach me a lesson...to be strong...

there's no left for me here anymore....God loves me.....

Perjalanan yang terlalu jauh

Kecewa.

Satu saja perkataan yg sy dpt tulis. Perjalanan hidup sy masih jauh, iya...itu sy setuju...perjalanan hidup sy sbg sorang student universiti, yg mungkin tdk akn berakhir....tp in dis thing..3 tahun diperlukan untuk menghabiskan degree, tp ternyata perjalanan msh jauh....

di mana kesilapan sy? sy x mcm org lain...sy ada otak yg lembap...i tried so hard...i tried my best....i did my best...but still fail! kenapa? Di mana silap sy? ........sy perlukan kekuatan...sy perlukan sokongan.....sy perlukan bimbingan.....sy perlukan ibu bapa sy....sy perlukan dorang...

Lirik lagu AKU PERMATA ini semuanya ungkapkan kisah sy n disebaliknya...

Betapa jauh dihempas badai ku hanyut

Hati merintih terkunci mulut membisu
Perjalanan yang jauh bagai tiada sudahnya
Liku ranjau kutempuh dalam mencari jawapan

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Apa yang terjadi ada hikmah sebaliknya
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Demi hari esok ku relakan…

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Haaa.. haaaa…

Walau tiada tangan menghulur
Kan ku tetap berdiri teguh ku bangkit semula
Tuhan, hanya engkau mengerti
Perjalanan hidup seorang insan

Kini ku jauh memetik bintang di langit
Berakhir musim dingin kini mekar bunga indah
Tinggallah memori terpahat di dalam dada
Terjawab sudah segalanya

Walau tiada tangan menghulur
Kan ku tetap berdiri teguh ku bangkit semula
Tuhan, hanya engkau mengerti
Perjalanan hidup seorang insan

Aku hanya ingin merasa
Kemanisan hidup di dunia yang ku dambakan
Tuhan hanya engkau mengerti
Perjalanan hidup seorang insan

Walau tiada tangan menghulur
Kan ku tetap berdiri teguh
Ku bangkit semula
Hanya titipkanlah doa
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I feel empty

I dun feel anything...being here is just like zero......there's nothing i could do, i'm so boring with my life, no fun at all...yeah! i finished with my thesis and all things but i dun feel anything dat i guess i should feel.... staying in dis little smaller room makes me feel nothing...alone all by myself here so sucks...can't wait to face all the busy day during dis intersession...i will try my best to score all those subjects......and yeah!! i extend for another 1 more year, cos there's still few core subjects dat i din take yet since my pointer for last sem was bad...less than 2.5 and yeah!! dats sucks!! i dun no whether i still can stand with dis university things anymore....being here so sucks! i hate for being a student..people expecting only all good and nice2 from me..but the real is, i'm bad...naughty...samseng..gengster..and i speak bitch too!! how come i could be a university student?? i feel pity for those my frens who were not qualified to further their studies in a university, cos they much more better than me...they good, they speak all the nice things..dressing properly, and sopan santun....unlike me...i hate school...i hate all those exams...i told my parents dat i want to quit, and yeah! they won't let me...sigh**

I'm boring with my life.....totally boring....if people ask me, where ur bf? lolxx....and i answer...erghh...he's working...then the people will starring at me and said...gosh! i think u single cos i see u like a single person...lol...u no wat..i do feel like i'm single too cos my bf has no time for me....i have bf?? nahh...i dun think so...i dun feel dat i have a bf.....so wat do u expect?lol...

maybe its better being alone naturally than being alone in a forcing way...huh..?? u get wat i mean? ...say to the hey, to the wat to the i dun fuckin' no u anymore!!!

SAKIT HATI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saya betul2 sakit hati ouh dgn dia....serious.......dats all i wanna say.

Dats y lah i'm so afraid to fall in love becos everytime i fall in love....will never ever long lasting!!!

Sy sendiri x tau d mana silap........saya? dia? errghh!! cukuplah....sakit otak sy berfikir...bgs lg sy fikir pasal study.....soon, i'll be back to kk, my hometown...sumwer i belong...Kalau ckp soal hati kn...of cos lh bah i love him...tp how.??? errghh......sakit hati!!! enough!