Chance & new love!!

Time birthday sy, sy & my geng mcm biasalh geng2 sy..johnny, tya n syn..celebrate besday sy d grappa...dat time sy single n blm ready lg mau ada bf sbb sy yg mls...haha..then, satu hari ni, c johnny chatting dgn sy dlm facebook, she asked me whether i mau bf or not, then sy ckplh hmm...kalau kwn blh lh tp untuk jd bf sy rasanya sy blm ready lg....

Bknlh apa bah..i just scared in facing any hurt lg bah...sy sdh boring dgn tu semua...couple then pts couple then pts...so sy just x mau lg ada siapa2 dulu dlm hidup sy...lama jg sdh sy single, kalau ada pun bf, semua pun bkn bf sy...just relationship yg kita sndiri x pasti lagi mcm mana...so buat apa mau truskn relationship mcm tu...

sy penat mcm tu.....so i decided to stop those relationship..x mau lg...let it go saja...

hmm..then suddenly, ada satu number ni pg msg sy d hp sy..sy x knl number tu..tp msg dia bunyi mcm ni..' Rebecca towk kh? '

Then sy x reply sbb sy x knl...but then sy curious sgt bah mau tau number tu siapa..so satu hari tu sy msglh dia, then kmi msg pnya msg..rupanya dia lh guy yg c johnny mau knl kn sma sy tu...hehe..his name is hudson toh...hahahaha...hmm...dia kwn sy dlm facebook jg...

hehe...then, wat can i say ahh...kmi msg dlm hp n kmi couple melalui hp jg..blm pnh nmpk each other tp sdh nmpk pictures lh..

he's cute n looked ganas lh....then time birthday c tya, dia ada dtg tp dat time malu2 ni sy mau tegur dia..hahahha,...dia pun malu2 jg..wahahah...

tp before dat, kmi mmg ada plan mau stay 1 day sama2 di rumah dia....so the next day tu, mcm biasalh plan kmi..dia ambil sy d unimas then dia bwa sy keluar..tp bkn stay d rumah dia..stay di kampung dia....huhu......

hmm..wat can i say, sy suka kampung dia..tenang n fresh..n sy selesa dgn grandma n grandpa dia. they were so kind..n from there, i can describe, c hudson ni...he's nice guy..n i wish dis will be the last love...i want him..

besides, sy sdh bnyk kali hurt...hmm...actually sy bg diri sy chance untuk org lain..untuk love org lain...chance untuk diri sy sendiri...fuh...lgpun hudson pun suka dgn sy..n sy pun suka dia...dia single n sy single.....hmm...so apa slhnya sy bg chance untuk diri sy cuba cinta yg baru....lgpun sy sdh lama lupakan cinta yg lama n cinta yg lama pun sdh lama pupus....x mau ingat lg apa2....

just new love yg sy mau fokus skg....hehe...

tp kmi still dlm mengenal hati budi masing2...hehe..eiseh men....hahahah....jwnpan artis...

hmm...so dats all lh cerita sy tntg relationship yg sy baru bina...eiseh...hehe..

& trust me, i love him.....

Nite outing with my bffs!! Sheeeeee shaaaaaa time....

Yesterday, me & tya facebooking..sy pg di bilik dia kemarin, cos i owes lepak2 di bilik dia..then suddenly, kami ternampaklh status c syn in facebuk, she said ' BF sy kuat control lah ' then apa lagi, me n tya time tu pg comment status dia, kmi ckplh, ' Aik, bkn kau ckp bf kau tu jns yg x suka control kh..? kunun spoting gitu..deii plislah..', & then c syn comment blk, ' mcm manalh .?' then kmi reply ' kesian o kau hehe..', then syn reply, ' kecian aja..? huhuhu' then, dgn slumber sja kmi reply kmi ckp ' haha..mau apa kau? carilh yg lain '.. & then, x puas bercoment coment sna..hehe..trus c syn pm kmi dlm chat inbox tu...& gini ceritanya.........

syn : kesian sja kh kmu?

kami : hahahah...siapa suruh kau yg ckp dia tu spoting berabis

syn : mcm mana lh ni?

kami : apa lg..cari lainlh! ssh2 lg kau!

syn : tp......sy syg c mike..

tu antara dialogue kmi lh sma c syn...yg lain2 sy x ingat sdh..hahha..but then u no, last2...c syn reply dlm bhasa iban..then kmi reply lh dlm bhasa iban jg...rupa2nya, c mike pula yg replt kami time tu..wakakakakkaaa.....tp yg sebenarnya...........................yg reply status comment & chat inbox tu, ialah saya.....hahahahaha...satu kali c mike reply guna bahasa iban, trus sy suruh c tya yg reply..hahahha..lolxx....i just dtg d bilik c tya yesterday for lepaking pnly, c tya yg sdg facebooking time tu, then guna account dia sjalh mengreply...hahhaa...& then, cerita pnya cerita..suddenly, ntahlh siapa yg start dulu ckp pasal outing dat nite..i guess its tya...mybelh watever..hehe...then, me n tya x dpt go out dis saturday or sunday cos busy.. then kmi bgtau c mike ini..' tp kalau mlm ni, kmi dpt kluar..' then trus c mike agree jg mau go out, he then said ' ok..mlm tok ..' then apa lg, sy & tya happy ni...hahahahah...lolxxx...then ...at 8.30 sumthing lh mcm tu..we all jln, hmm..now story pasal tempat yg kmi pg tu...its Lebanon...

lebanon is a place which i can said dat its more to western style...& harga mkanan dia pun quite expensive jg tp shisha di sana quite cheap, its just RM19... hehe...comparing to labuan, shisha d sana RM25 i guess....haha...ok then kami order lh kunun2 mkanan kami, cos me n tya blm mkn, so kami mmg starving actually..shisha time ..., strawberry + mint flavour..hmm..test so good & delicious hahahah...its bout 1 half hour or more i guess, mkanan kmi blm smpai2 lg..imaginelh sy lapar o time tu..then u no apa saja yg kena bagi..? only 1 small plate with stir chicken + garlic sauce in it...dats all...then, kmi still waiting lg lah d other fuds..walaoo.....u no..smpai mau hbs shisha tu kmi sedut still blm smpai2 jg...then, satu kali tu, bf c syn , c mike..dia pg toilet & want to pay for our drinks & shisha..he then asked lh d waiter bout our fuds yg sdh berjam- jam lma kmi tunggu..lolxx...& then u no apa bdk tu ckp..???? hmm.......................

dia ckp, semua mkanan sdh hbs & dorang mau close sdh kedai dorang...

pnyalah panas hati sy.............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shitt!! sialan!! babi!! asshole!! smua lh sy maki....sdh tau habis..knapa x ckp awal2...ini..biar sja customer waiting...such fuckin asshole oo service d lebanon tu..first time in my life sy dpt service yg sgt worse mcm tu...!!!!! lolxx....mmg mud sy sdh rosak & upset..+ bad mud...nasib baik ada shisha..shisha sjalh yg sy layan..sdhlh green tea yg sy order pun dorang buat pahit.....lolxx....sdh pahit, pekat lg tu....adessss..................WTF!!!! mmg tdk hbs minuman sy padahal green tea is my favourite....lolxx......sooo worse & bad service from d workers of a lebanon.....lolxx....FUCK OFF !!!!! then, end up with shisha..we all pg kfc..hahhah..last2 ni kmi pg sna..sbb sy hungry...so i decided just to took kfc as my dinner...lolxx....

but sy okey jg bah...hehe..bad mud sy hilang after dat..hahahhaha.....tp mmg kmi i mean all d girls took bnyk2 pictures..bah biasalh kmi..camera is our number 1 fren....hahahahha... oh ya..ada video jg.....hehe...dats all lh yg sy mau cerita..kmi blk di unimas bout 12 sumthing mcm tu lah...

kenyang & sleepy.....haha...

My idol & i love them so much!!

Daughtry...OOO..i love him so much

i love his voice & i love everything bout him

& trust me, i have a crush on him..

hahahah...

Tokio hotel have their own style & their own music style, dats wat i like d most...& i love their fashion style..especially bill's dressing..wow...he's so great...& i love their songs too...a bit grunge & a bit screamo but not too screamo...i really love it...

I love paramore too...they are just my great idol..

n i love their songs, i love their attitudes....so much..

Bill kaulitz from tokio hotel.. i love his hair...

They are my great idols..& u no wat, they are my inspiration too, my 1st inspiration is my mum...hehe... But i totally love them so much..their songs are cool & i don feels any bored when listening to their songs... i love chris daughtry coz for me he's handsome & i like his husky & super rock voice...haha...really love him..i love tokio hotel cos they gives me more inspiration in metals stuffs & more inspiration in expression feelings...plus, i love their songs..& they have their own style which only them have the x factor....i love em'..i love evanescence cos i love amy lee...hehe...their songs are cool too...a bit grunge but not a screamo..i like dat.. paramore..!! I love em' too...love their songs & especially their attitudes....hahaa...they just great... cool & superb!!....love u all!!

My busy day...like a hell..is it???

Wat i'm goin to say tonite?? nothing special..just a million of works here which i have to settle em' a.s.a.p huhu.....hmm...td pagi i bngun jm 5 ++...am...n then, i'm online for bout few hours i guess...n then at 10 am, i went out to desa ilmu..sy beli bnyk2 brg especially foods...magy hahhah.., chocolate cos i love choco, green tea 2 kotak besar, hehe..my favourite drink.., sum raisins, bread, biscuits....etc....hehe....1 week holiday for raya so 1 week all cafe were closed....so no foods lo....dats y i bought soo manay foods....hmm...diet o sy time cuti ni...fuh...ok balik pd story sy d whole day..hehe...sy smpai d hostel bout 12 ++ pm..then masak maggy..huhu....sy lapar dat time..hmm...then after dat, sy chatting but not in my ym..i used chat email inbox from my yahoo account...hehe...eeeuw.....got sum 1 ni kan, he told me in chat inbox, he wanna do sex with me.....eeeuww............can't u imagine, he's married..ada anak 1 lg tu..but still want a sex from another girl..i can't biliv how pathetic dat guy..eeuw..sdh ada bini pun still x puas...wats wrong wit guys nowadays huh..? kurang ksh syg kah? eeuw,,,...well, sy lyn sja org tu hahah....lyn mcm biasa, mau try n tgk dia tu guy yg mcm mana...eeuw...soooooo worse......i will not goin into him...absolutely...he's freakin....hahhaha.....lolxx.....actually i knew hin from tubely cos i hv tubely...hehe..but not really active in there..hehe...in facebook...always! hee....then finish chatting, i started doin my fuckin work...work yg mmg sgt bnyk...walaooo....report field trip, assignment marine jelly fish, report lab nutrition, study for next test, report journal animal systematic, report journal animal population ecology....etc...hehe.....OMFG!!! please help me...n i stopped at 5 pm...then i mandi...then i online lg hehe......online till 7 pm...haha....then i started study..........study till just now, at 11 ++ pm....then i'm here now, in blogging...n twitter.....hell yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hye to world of blogging.....love u.....hee....

Overslept!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wahahahahah.............

OMFG!!! last nite i was felt asleep around 8 sumthing....lolxx....but it was actually long zzzzzzzzzzz.....lolxx.....i hate it....sy plan mau bangun lg bah tu mau buat kerja tp tetidur pula....shitt...so now, i'm just stay near to my table study doin sum work...fuh..dis holiday will totally be fucked up if i don have any works to do.....lalallalaaa...

LOVE doesn't exist in me....oh really???

I don't know how my feel bout a LOVE..i don no y & its so hard to explen. Ramai btl o guys try to tackle me but in fact i don feel anything bout love, i mean word cinta not sayang..cos sayang is different than cinta & i'm totally sure many people will agree with me. Hmm..........since i got dumped by my ex, sy btl2 tiada feeling lg for a love, don no y..maybe effect dia so strong sampai sy tiada feeling to have another guy in my life,..its just not because of no feeling but actually i'm scared in giving a chance for myself to fall in love again..i'm scared to fall in love, really scared....besides, its so hard to trust guys, & its so hard to deal wit them, well, for now i'm happy with my single life, no stress if i got stress trust me, i just stress wit my study, & d most important thing being a single in a life will save my budget in reloding hp's credit wahahahaha........hmm..but dis is d truth, i'm scared to fall in love, i don want to, bila sy yg ada feeling dgn tu org, dia pula yg complicated & bila org tu yg ada feeling dgn sy, sy pula yg x mau dia! wtf!! I hate dis part...so i think its better for me for being a single, & sy x mau ada kaitan dengan siapa2 lagi....i just want to be alone..i just want to mind my own business, cos for me, love always come from time to time & i just let the god will set my mind whether i'm ready or not to fall in love again..hehe....i just want stay away from guys yg admiring me, not becos i don like them but its me, me....its my own problem not them...& i'm sure dorang pun x akan tunggu sy lama2 cos waiting is painful, hahah....so i don care bout dat at all...just let them go... they have their own decision..i'm not ready for a LOVE yet....i mean new love....! cukuplh mcm ni saja..sy sdh stop loving a person yg i think i love since dia ckp yg dia cannot go far with me, hmm..so dats it, sampai sana sja lh, besides, he has his own responsibility to his family. So its ok lah, i don mind bout dat hehe......besides, i think he still love his ex wife..ooops........haha....but, d truth is, i really2 hope dat he will declare back with his ex wife cos poor d kids ouh....kesian dorang mcm terbiar sja xda both parents...hmm..... well, i think dats all yang sy rasa sy mau tulis d cni..hehe....conclusion.....i just want to be alone...be a single & enjoy with my life with my bffs....my family & enjoy studying hahah....even though i'm a bit stress now...hahahahaha.....

All bout grappa crazy time.....me, collete, stevie, justin, neo, karlslaw...kmi pg clubbing d grappa....mmg happening jg lh d grappa cni kuching, kalau kamu p clubbing cni blh tahan jglh....but 4 me, sy lbh prefer d kk pnya clubz lh....more happening!! Ni nah gambar2 sy dgn geng2 sy yg gila2 jg....hahah..sot sdh...

oooooooooopssssssssss.....i forgot another 1.............hehe.... she's donna......my bff too....hehe....

My besfrenss................ivy, tya, syn,..dis pic was taken during my 21st besday in kuching grappa club....hahah..lolxx...i love them soo much, i really appreciate them 4 wat they done before...muahhxx....i can't imagine if i lose them...they mean so much to me..hehe.....love u girls...

I'm sick....

fuh.....my fever damn soo.....suckss..i hate dis part...i can't imagine wat will happened next...lolxx.....

Its my new!!!!!!

Hola everyone...................i am new in blogging...i just wanna create something maybe interesting in my blog.....well, i am learning in using my new blog...hehe.....