Perjalanan yang terlalu jauh

Kecewa.

Satu saja perkataan yg sy dpt tulis. Perjalanan hidup sy masih jauh, iya...itu sy setuju...perjalanan hidup sy sbg sorang student universiti, yg mungkin tdk akn berakhir....tp in dis thing..3 tahun diperlukan untuk menghabiskan degree, tp ternyata perjalanan msh jauh....

di mana kesilapan sy? sy x mcm org lain...sy ada otak yg lembap...i tried so hard...i tried my best....i did my best...but still fail! kenapa? Di mana silap sy? ........sy perlukan kekuatan...sy perlukan sokongan.....sy perlukan bimbingan.....sy perlukan ibu bapa sy....sy perlukan dorang...

Lirik lagu AKU PERMATA ini semuanya ungkapkan kisah sy n disebaliknya...

Betapa jauh dihempas badai ku hanyut

Hati merintih terkunci mulut membisu
Perjalanan yang jauh bagai tiada sudahnya
Liku ranjau kutempuh dalam mencari jawapan

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korus

Haaa.. haaaa…

Walau tiada tangan menghulur
Kan ku tetap berdiri teguh ku bangkit semula
Tuhan, hanya engkau mengerti
Perjalanan hidup seorang insan

Kini ku jauh memetik bintang di langit
Berakhir musim dingin kini mekar bunga indah
Tinggallah memori terpahat di dalam dada
Terjawab sudah segalanya

Walau tiada tangan menghulur
Kan ku tetap berdiri teguh ku bangkit semula
Tuhan, hanya engkau mengerti
Perjalanan hidup seorang insan

Aku hanya ingin merasa
Kemanisan hidup di dunia yang ku dambakan
Tuhan hanya engkau mengerti
Perjalanan hidup seorang insan

Walau tiada tangan menghulur
Kan ku tetap berdiri teguh
Ku bangkit semula
Hanya titipkanlah doa
Agar permataku terus bersinar

Agar permataku terus bersinar

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I feel empty

I dun feel anything...being here is just like zero......there's nothing i could do, i'm so boring with my life, no fun at all...yeah! i finished with my thesis and all things but i dun feel anything dat i guess i should feel.... staying in dis little smaller room makes me feel nothing...alone all by myself here so sucks...can't wait to face all the busy day during dis intersession...i will try my best to score all those subjects......and yeah!! i extend for another 1 more year, cos there's still few core subjects dat i din take yet since my pointer for last sem was bad...less than 2.5 and yeah!! dats sucks!! i dun no whether i still can stand with dis university things anymore....being here so sucks! i hate for being a student..people expecting only all good and nice2 from me..but the real is, i'm bad...naughty...samseng..gengster..and i speak bitch too!! how come i could be a university student?? i feel pity for those my frens who were not qualified to further their studies in a university, cos they much more better than me...they good, they speak all the nice things..dressing properly, and sopan santun....unlike me...i hate school...i hate all those exams...i told my parents dat i want to quit, and yeah! they won't let me...sigh**

I'm boring with my life.....totally boring....if people ask me, where ur bf? lolxx....and i answer...erghh...he's working...then the people will starring at me and said...gosh! i think u single cos i see u like a single person...lol...u no wat..i do feel like i'm single too cos my bf has no time for me....i have bf?? nahh...i dun think so...i dun feel dat i have a bf.....so wat do u expect?lol...

maybe its better being alone naturally than being alone in a forcing way...huh..?? u get wat i mean? ...say to the hey, to the wat to the i dun fuckin' no u anymore!!!