LOVE doesn't exist in me....oh really???

I don't know how my feel bout a LOVE..i don no y & its so hard to explen. Ramai btl o guys try to tackle me but in fact i don feel anything bout love, i mean word cinta not sayang..cos sayang is different than cinta & i'm totally sure many people will agree with me. Hmm..........since i got dumped by my ex, sy btl2 tiada feeling lg for a love, don no y..maybe effect dia so strong sampai sy tiada feeling to have another guy in my life,..its just not because of no feeling but actually i'm scared in giving a chance for myself to fall in love again..i'm scared to fall in love, really scared....besides, its so hard to trust guys, & its so hard to deal wit them, well, for now i'm happy with my single life, no stress if i got stress trust me, i just stress wit my study, & d most important thing being a single in a life will save my budget in reloding hp's credit wahahahaha........hmm..but dis is d truth, i'm scared to fall in love, i don want to, bila sy yg ada feeling dgn tu org, dia pula yg complicated & bila org tu yg ada feeling dgn sy, sy pula yg x mau dia! wtf!! I hate dis part...so i think its better for me for being a single, & sy x mau ada kaitan dengan siapa2 lagi....i just want to be alone..i just want to mind my own business, cos for me, love always come from time to time & i just let the god will set my mind whether i'm ready or not to fall in love again..hehe....i just want stay away from guys yg admiring me, not becos i don like them but its me, me....its my own problem not them...& i'm sure dorang pun x akan tunggu sy lama2 cos waiting is painful, hahah....so i don care bout dat at all...just let them go... they have their own decision..i'm not ready for a LOVE yet....i mean new love....! cukuplh mcm ni saja..sy sdh stop loving a person yg i think i love since dia ckp yg dia cannot go far with me, hmm..so dats it, sampai sana sja lh, besides, he has his own responsibility to his family. So its ok lah, i don mind bout dat hehe......besides, i think he still love his ex wife..ooops........haha....but, d truth is, i really2 hope dat he will declare back with his ex wife cos poor d kids ouh....kesian dorang mcm terbiar sja xda both parents...hmm..... well, i think dats all yang sy rasa sy mau tulis d cni..hehe....conclusion.....i just want to be alone...be a single & enjoy with my life with my bffs....my family & enjoy studying hahah....even though i'm a bit stress now...hahahahaha.....